"But you don't look all exhausted and run-down like other grad students. Impressive."
|Just after I finished my first Results chapter earlier this month. Woo!|
And then I congratulated my body for holding up, because psychologically, I was really exhausted and run-down.
I didn't blog about my dissertation progress last month because there was nothing to blog about. I was going through a nasty little bout of depression that was making it hard to make progress on anything, really.
This is not something I'm scared or ashamed to talk about. It can happen to anyone who finds themselves stretched a little too thin; I just don't happen to be as resilient as the next person. If I broke my arm, I'd have to wear a cast, and everyone would see it. My brain needed a little patching up, too. That's all.
And it needs to be talked about, because stuff like this happens if we don't.
Since then, I've sought help, and with some little pick-me-ups of sunshine, warmer weather, and making a little more effort to be kinder to myself, we're back on track.
Perhaps the biggest motivator is that I now have an official dissertation date: June 7 at 1:30pm!